I got on the right path in the meeting with AKS and SS today. It probably helped, in a way, that I was a bit frazzled from the day, and had just gotten done with a somewhat tough therapy session. I tried to express my true thoughts to LN-F.
I decided to approach the planning meeting with enthusiasm. To move forward with the project with reckless abandon, not thinking at all about whether it will turn out OK. (I need to approach more of my research that way.) To be OK with moving forward without having all the answers. During the ensuing back-and-forth discussions, I held my own.
I took TG's advice: I took charge of the meeting from the beginning. I am capable of this after all. I improvised. It was a little uncomfortable, and that was part of the point. The turtle only makes progress when he sticks his head out.
It was nice to hear "keep up the good work" from LSM-W.
I like lucid sentences. I want to write more of them. It feels good when a sentence expresses my true thoughts. In this proposal and others, I will write more of them. I will read people whose writing I admire, such as Elie Honig, and let them inspire me to pursue my own path.
"Might as well throw everything I've got at this thing."
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