It has been a rough month, between the shootings in Buffalo and Uvalde, finishing up the semester, Jayme's birthday, the party, the PRMRP proposal, and just trying to hold it all together.
I admitted tonight that I'm scared to go back and teach in person. I need to put these thoughts in another post. It's tough to face this all at once. The next time I teach in person, I will be ready.
- I should get back into meditation. There's a temptation when I get up in the morning to get started with the day right away. I wonder if I would be a little more clear-minded if I gave myself a few minutes each morning to just be. Like I advised Amy Adams to do the other day. It might help me return to the "peace of mind" state I was able to attain when Mom was here. That is the right state to be in to do good work.
- While practicing tonight, I had a thought: "Just string a few coherent phrases together. It's better to say something coherent, whatever is on the mind at the moment, without judging; just create." The same can be applied to doing creative work in the lab.
- I felt good running today. It was nice to put sunscreen on, and feel a bit methodical while getting ready. It felt like I was giving my body the proper treatment. I need to reintegrate exercise into my daily routine, because I feel better in other areas of life when I do.
- Now that it's summer, I need to have my morning routine down pat. I will make it a point to get up early, meditate, and write every single morning for an hour. No matter what, I will create something new, and it will be from my own heart and mind. It won't be the best stuff in the world at first. That's OK. The secret, I have a sneaking suspicion, is to just. keep. creating. I've been typing the Ira Glass quote a few times, but I haven't lived all the way up to it yet.
