I can feel my faith in myself beginning to grow.
I must continue to speak in my very own voice. "I am now allowing myself to be more and more excited." Et cetera. Be exactly as badass and careful with words as I really am.
Let me be emboldened to put in the work. Daily.
I finished the thing. Well, I need to iron out an issue with my biosketch. But I finished it.
Sometimes you need a video like Ballercello to lift the spirit. It did that for me in this moment.
I will charge forward. It doesn't matter how hard it is, I will fight for my dreams.
I must watch my thoughts. They turn into actions. My actions turn into habits, which become who I am (in large part).
Today I had a good run while at the office. I was able to get into a groove and start getting words onto the page felt good. Tomorrow I will make another run at it.
Mark my words - I am going to finish this thing. Maybe it will get funded, maybe it won't, but the value in this exercise is in the finishing.
I talked about some cool research ideas with Xun today that I don't want to forget, so I am putting them here.
Bliss: (n) listening to Wo Der Hund after getting myself into a relaxed state.
I aspire to the level of creativity that Bartolomey and Bittmann achieve. I shall not aim to follow in their footsteps. I will seek what they sought: I will push the limits (in the words of Bartolomey).
Quite the romantic vision, taking trains through Europe, drinking espresso, etc. Over time, I will develop my own style that is entirely new. I will incorporate things I like, but also force myself to create, again and again and again.
The thing I did today that enhanced the AHTF project was to delve deep in the meeting, to start thinking about the nitty-gritty details of this project: How is the propulsive force going to be applied in the simulations? Finally, after more than three years of thinking about it, I have the chance to actually try to answer this scientific question that's been vexing me.
Also, apparently we're into house hunting now. I'm actually OK with it, and perhaps I'm more OK with it than I should be, but I just don't tend to think too hard about these things. It would be nice to have a place to play my bass and record video lectures (e.g. set up a whiteboard wall).
Meanwhile, I must continue to do whatever it is that agitates me into productive action. Watching Steve Brunton videos and 3b1b lectures helps. It reminds me to sharpen my own game because I know I've got the chops to compete with those guys.
I need to step it up, but I generally feel okay with how things are proceeding.
Writing the email to the JMU/GMU joint capstone collaboration reminded me that I am a leader. Specifically, the commands using the imperative tense, the succinct and targeted writing, the concrete instructions. This is my new normal. This will be my fuel to cut down on wasted time in the coming days. I can't afford to waste time anymore.
The things I did today to advance the AHTF project:
